Quick musings as it's been a minute since I updated to those I know in my writing circles...
.... or What/where/how the fuck I am nowadays as the summer is winding down.
Well, something to that affect. Global warming might have vastly different ideas.
Got let go of the hellmouth that is the pantry job. Which was fine, since it was making me miserable. This was after my vacation anyway, since it’s was one of the reasons I got let go. It would’ve been better if they just emailed it to me, but it was better that they gave it to me in person. Hilariously enough, thanks to my former co-worker, the place seems to gotten worse. So, I’m enjoying the rest of the summer of unemployment and trying to heal from an ASSY work environment. Nothing like employment karma to enjoy life.
I’m enjoying just taking up big pieces of time for myself to relax and think deeply of what I want to do, while filling out job posting and sending out my resume. I needed this. I needed time back to catch my breath and not deal with anything. That I needed stillness and not to run of flumes each month.
Speaking of, since I’m still mourning the lost of Ello, I haven’t had the wherewithal to write jack shit. I didn’t have anything in my head or my heart to write anything and just … exist. I rather just existed inside my bed and not rush off to the next thing. There were moments, but not much worth of putting down in the ones and zeroes.
I’m also slowing taking back time to deal with myself. Not going to a lot of parties, not seeing most of my friends. Just recovering.
New therapist seems to get IT. This is the first time in a very long time that a therapist not hold me at fault for just CRYING. Especially when I have moments of bringing up sad or traumatic moments and being slightly weepy. New therapist allows it and encourages that. A welcome change. A caveat: sessions are only 20 minutes long. I don’t mind since it gives me one thing to focus on, but I can understand how it wouldn’t be enough time for someone else. Also, I need someone to talk about the deeper aspects of my problems without talking to my friends about them. I rather have a neutral party for my horsefuckery.
I hope, whoever reads this has a great rest of the summer and hope the this year end as quickly as it started. I really hope so, Constant Reader. I really, really, really do.
I haven't done a lot of writing either Dom. Personal stuff, and Tumblr just doesn't have the right vibe. I stay to keep up with my ello friends and put some music stuff up, but my writing just isn't clicking right now.